6:07 PM
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Hazwani
aku tader la baek sangat nak cakap pasal bende ni, tapi aku raser aku kene tulis bende ni untuk tatapan diri sendiri, and lebih bagus dan berpahala bagi aku, kalau hasil tulisan aku ni, dapat jadi pedoman dan teladan untuk orang laen.memang Malaysia ni, kat ceruk mane ko blajar pon, there will be a muslim crowd, tak 2 orang, sorang la paling skit. and with the existance of this crowd, comes also the responsibilities of being a muslim.Rasulallah pernah bersabda,Barang siapa yang tidur nyenyak dan tidak mengambil peduli urusan umat Islam lain, maka ia bukanlah dari golongan mereka.maksudnyer, tak cukup kalau ko sorang je muslim, sedangkan orang sekeliling ko tak amik peduli. memang tanggungjawab kite, sbb da bersaudara, untuk saling sama2 ingat-mengingati about both kehidupan didunia dan diakhirat. apatha lagi kalau kite da bershaabat baek, satu same laen. tanggungjawab macam tanggungjawab berkomuniti la jugak. contohnyer: you're sharing the toilet with the other 30 occupants of your hostel. mestila nak kene jage kebersihan, jangan tinggal bnde2 yang tak patut, jangan la over sangat gune shower, jangan bazir2 air sbb ni sumer harta yang dikongsi bersama. Yang laennyer, dengan agame is that, ko memang tak share kubur, tapi nanti akan kene tanyer, ape ko dah buat untuk saudara ko? ape ko da buat untuk agame ko?kalau your life has truly been about saving your own ass, memang kene la kan. sbb tanggungjawab kite adalah untuk amar ma'aruf nahi mungkar. memang orang cakap susah la nak amar ma'aruf nahi mungkar ngan orang laen. but really, it can be as little as suruh potong kuku. tak semestinyer nak kene ketuk pintu dari rumah2 ke rumah ajak solat kat masjid.again aku nak cakap, aku bukanlah baik. tapi aku sedang cube perbaiki diri aku yang agak teruk tika belasan tahun. ceewah! sorry la kawan2, aku selalu tegur korang striaght jer. aku mengaku memang tak pandai nak beralas2 mulut ni kalau bab agame. Bukan niat nak kepochi, ataupon jeles, tapi aku sendiri memang nak make it clear that Islam da set rules yang cukup untuk kite. bende yang bleh dilonggarkan, dilonggarkan untuk kesenangan kite. and there are also reasons for things should remain the way they are. contohnyer, dah diterangkan trang tang tang, yang aurat laki lutut sampai pusat, ade jugelah yang pakai shorts. aku taknak tunding maner2 sbb kaum kerabat aku pon ade yang cmtuh, and da berbuih da ckp bende ni.macam aku cakap tadi, tanggungjawab sebagai muslim tuh tetap ade. kalau ditanyer nanti, nak jawab ape? jadi sedar2 la tanggungjawab sendiri.Aku miss solat magrib and isya' semalam. due to exhaustion yang melampau, aku tido dari 5.30pm lpas solat asar smpai 5.00 am the following day. bangun2 memang raser berdose rase nak nanges la. bukan tak wat alarm. (tapi kan aku da cakap, fon aku da bengong!)...tapi aku tak salahkan roomate tercinta aku. kenape? sebab dier non-muslim! takkan nak kjut aku solat plak, aku naek malu nanti...but anyhow, aku tak salahkan sape la aku burn solat semalam, salah aku jgk tak cari handphone baru. cewaah! alasan. cis.so daripade aku yang tak berape nak baek ni, marilah kite same2 menjlnkan tanggungjwb masing2 sbgai seorang muslim akhir zaman yang berlumba-lumba kearah kebaikan. insyAllah. :)
5:57 PM
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Hazwani
Lately, budak2 dok cakap2 "Ko rase kite fly tak?"Muahahahhah :PinsyAllah, lecturer dah gi wat visa, umah pon tgh in process of booking. dapat ler kot. on one condition, kene la pass with flying colours finals ni. aku exam 2 paper jer kali ni, tapi killer punyer. English language teaching ngan Literature. Susah la bagi aku ngan kwn2 aku.bak kate Mdme. Angie "Don't give them reasons to not let you in,"
so basically, Im reading Pride and prejudice for stress at the moment. because exam is like less than 2 weeks. not that I haven't read it before, I definitely have. dozens of times. sebab aku suke novel ni. but to tell you the truth, aku bukanlah orang yg particular sgt pasal details in books. maksudnyer, aku bace and bace. tapi sebab aku ceeepat lupe, ni la prob dier. aku tak ngat details yg kecik2 pasal ape yang aku bace dalam 7 minit lalu. so sekarang ni, tengah membaca dengan iltizam, dengan harapan dapat score untuk finals nanti.
Wish me luck and jgn lupe doakan aku ok! Jom menuju kejayan B. Ed Tesol Otago cohort 1!
"Weyh, aku nak amik gambar atas rumput!"
10:29 PM
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Hazwani
we were in the tv room when diba told us about what she read in the newspapper recently. about the earth quake in indonesia. there has been 3 quakes recently before today. in the news, it has stated that the actual time of the quakes. they are 17:58, 17:16 and 8:52. Ade ape dengan mase2 ni?...these times, when checked in the tafsir of Al-Quran as according to surahs and verses, leads us to verses which talks about the destruction of ummat."Dan tidak ada suatu negeri pun (yang durhaka penduduknya, melainkan Kami binasakannya sebelum Hari Kiamat atau Kami siksa (penduduknya) dengan siksa yang sangat keras. Yang demikian itu telah tertulis di dalam kitab. (Lauh Mahfuz)" -17:5817, Surah Al-Isra'"Dan jika Kami hendak membinasakan sesuatu negeri, maka Kami perintahkan kepada orang yang hidup mewah di negeri itu (agar mentaati Allah), tetapi bila mereka melakukan kedurhakaan di dalam (negeri) itu, maka sepantaslah berlakunya terhadapnya perkataan (hukuman Kami), kemudian Kami binasakan sama sekali (negeri itu)." -17:1616, Surah Al-Isra'"(Keadaan mereka) serupa dengan keadaan pengikut Fir'aun dan orang-orang sebelum mereka. Mereka mengingkari ayat2 Allah, maka Allah menyiksa mereka disebabkan oleh dosa-dosanya. Sungguh Allah Maha Kuat lagi sangat keras siksanya" -8:5252, Surah Al-AnfalAfter we were being told, immediately after that, the news on TV 3 announced the latest earth quake that happened today at 04:52. terus kitorang bukak tafsir balik."Mereka itulah orang-orang yang dilaknat Allah. Dan barang siapa yang dilaknat Allah, nescaya engkau tidak akan mendapatkan penolongan baginya." -4:5252, Surha An-Nisa'Naek bulu roma sampai kepale. So what do you think?
Petunjuk Allah ade dimane2. Al-Quran da beri bukti yang terang, sah lagi crystal. (apakah). nabi pon da cakap, semuanya da lg benderang diceritakan dulu..tpi kite manusia still lalai. What would happen if the Resurrection day happens to be tonight, just before you have your godd nite sleep? Mampukah kite mase tuh nak persiapkan diri?Therefore, berubahlah. Maseh ade mase. Kiamat tuh, Allah sahaja yang tahu. tapi that does not meani that we should just let it be. Memang hidayah Allah berikan kepada sesiapa yang dikehendaki. But, you've to think too that, Allah akan berikan hidayah kepade orang2 yang berusahe jugak because He too, wants to see us happy alongside his teachings.takkan nak tunggu kene cam kat indon baru nak sedar? Allah's everywhere. Carilah Dia, and cherish Him through the prayers and dua's and zikirs.Another thing is, kalau ade maksiat dalam satu community tuh, Allah akan turunkan bala.not just onto those who commit the sins, but also to those "good" people in the community. Sekali lum sum. Sebab ape? those people did not play their role in stopping the maksiat from continuing. tak berusahe untuk stoppan maksiat tuh. That was what actually happened in Indon, I think. That it has become a nation that changes Islamic teachings completely. Mengubah agama Allah, kompem2 la Allah murka. So they have to face what they deserve from their own actions. too bad.Sebab tuh la, kite wajib berdakwah. Amar ma'aruf,nahi mungkar. tak gune ade sorang jer baek dalam masyarakat. Selfish namenyer. The same goes to orang yang berusahe tapi, other people stil refuse to follow the real teachings of Islam. kene usahe lebey sikit kan. Even time Rasulullah dulu pon, mule2 beliau ditentang habis habisan,tapi in the end, Alhamdulillah, look at where Islam is today.Sorry la, aku memang suke membebel.
4:50 PM
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Hazwani
1. rasa mcm nak beli turtle. sangat cute. geram
2. just bought a new book. a new book, for a new person. will give it when the right time comes.
3. and oh yeah, just got myself a new lappy.meet
weewien mase raye arituh. orang shopping baju, aku laptop hunting!
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p/s: selamber je aku ni. malam ni da la exam titas. bace pon tak abes.
11:25 AM
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Hazwani
Hello again. Baru jer wat entry pasal my BFF which is the one before this post.
Lately, I've not been consistent in the amalans that I've been doing over 2 months before. the inconsistency is very severe that I feel very different now. sedeyh pon ade, but insyAlllah after the assignments are handed in this friday, which means, I am free, free,free from the torture of the assignments, I will start to continue and catch up what I have left behind for almost a week.
It'll be an outright lie if one says that he or she never talks or even thinks about getting married. memang tipu gile la kan.
So, lately, memang asyik fikir pasal kawen la kan. (memang gatal, but it's normal for girls in the twenties to be having this kind of thoughts. haha). Bile fikir2 balek, Ya Rabbi, da besor panjang da sebenarnyer. Mom always say that " Mama umor macam awak ni, da keje da ". Well, mom, memang wani tgh keje pon, still in training jer. :)
Ok. its normal for us to have some kind of expectation of how we want out future spuse to be. Typical girls would want tall dark and handsome . Normal la kan.
"Aku nak tinggi la kan, sebab aku pon tak berape nak tinggi"
"Aku nak muke cam Remy Ishak. Gelap2 sikit. Cam Ken***y tuh la best. Macho tuh, gelap2, muke masculine. Jambu2 ni, kureng skit"
"Meet my future husband, Jesse McCartney!" -sungguh tak bleh blah. :))
"Aku nak orang yang scholar petronas, keje kat KLCC.hehe. Kalau dpt bonus setengah tahun, almost rm30 k tuh. feh feh feh..."
however, we've to always bear in mind that we are not always in control of things. for example, the dreams of haveing those A++ qualities in our future husbands. In fact, people said, the more you want something, the further you'll be from it. So, the best thing is to pray for the best. Minta dikurniakan yang terbaek untuk diri for only He knows what is best for us.
Yela, kadang2 those good looking man pon banyak probnyer. Because they are good looking, there will be people who will be jealous of the marriage that you guys will be having. Karang ade la probnyer. Fitnah, frequent quarrels and sometimes, the marriage could also leads to separation, walaupon baru jer kawen. Susah dowh.
But this does not mean that not-so good looking guys are all nice and good...ade jugak la yang gatal tak bleh blah, mate kernajang and pantang nmpak perempuan terus nak naek daun. And this does not also means that all handsome guys gatal. It all comes back to their Iman.
I believe that, wherever we go, we will always return to our root, our religion. And I strongly believe that when the root is strong, insyAllah everyhting will be fine. Smooth.
But to find these people of good roots, os another big problem.
the other day dibah told me about to Hafiz-s who are hired to be the Imams during the Ramadhan. Hafiz A was a responsible young man who did his job. Hafiz B on the other hand, only came and did his job on the first 2 weeks of ramadhan. So,when the pay day reached, Hafiz A was paid rm1000, while Hafiz B was only paid rm500.
tersebutla kesah, these two Hafizs live under one roof. And on the last day when they were leaving, Hafiz left the house first, followed by Hafiz A. When Hafiz A reached home, he was very excited to show his mother the money that he has gotten from his first job. Tengok2, bukak2 beg, the money was gone. Being suspicious to Hafiz B, Hafiz A tried calling him several times to ask him about the money. However, he was totally M.I.A.
Moral of the story, tak sumer yang ader basic agama ni baek. Bak kate dibah, lately, being a Hafiz these days is not anymore Lillahi ta'ala. Instead it has become a trend who knows where it come from. Astaghfirullah hal'azim.
Jadi, nak cari jodoh, the best way is to refer to your parents. Kalau ade yang nak masuk merisik, eloklah refer tros kat mak. InsyaAllah, everything will be ok. And if it doesn't, always remember that Allah has His plans lined up for us. Yang kita sangka buruk, mungkin is the best for us.
Wallahu'alam
Either way, always pray for the best for He listens to everything that we say. InsyAllah akan diperkenankan. Ameen.
10:57 AM
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Hazwani
I have been very, very, very busy lately. I bet you all knew this from the spiders I've reared for since after raya. horrible. horrible. actually, after eid,when I got back to Kuching, I was to hand in almost 7 assgmnets on the following week. But, Allah has been very kind, ade lecturer yang kasi extension for the assignments. So here I am, doin my assignment.
After numbers of sleepless nights, tinggal dua assignment jer yang tinggal. Alhamdulillah. and those two assignments are to be handed in this friday. Ade mase lg. :)
But anyways, last night was the worst. Tak tido is one thing, the other thing was this morning, I was like totally dysfunctional. Felik jugak sbb, it's not like I've never miss my sleep pon. Oh, maybe because yesterday I went out with riby. Oh, yeah again, yesterday was riby's birthday!
Happy Birthday sayang
Best jugak jalan semalam even though balek hostel wat keje cam nak **** jer..
But anyways, happy 20th birthday, may the coming years be more fulfilling and memorable
*seindah hiasan adalah wainta solehah*
